Something to do with the moon and the sun.

I don't really know what was going on with the sun tonight but I do know it was something special and threatening to your eyesight - clearly I am no Astronomer.  The sun really was absurdly bright.  Sunglasses required.  After the deed was done and the spots faded from my eyesight, the sky was set on fire, making it a perfect moment to sit on the deck and swing a bit all while thinking about nothing, absolutely freaking nothing.  It was glorious.    

The only way it should be.

Beautiful things make me happy.  And who would want to be around anything ugly?  Not me.

I'm OK. Seven years later.

It has been seven years since my dad passed away.  And I’m OK.  The moment my dad died my world came to a screeching halt.  The world fell from beneath my feet  and at 15 years old, I had to rewrite all my hopes and dreams.  I was broken and felt like I would never be able to pick up the pieces and put them back together again.  7 years later, those pieces are picked up and I’m OK.  A large part of me is still missing and I will forever have a hole in my heart.  Hearts break and crack but out of those cracks can grow some of the most beautiful things.  These seven things have grown out of the cracks in my heart over the past seven years:  

1.  Love and love deeply with no regret or fear.

2.  Only worry about the life changing moments.  Everything else is just a story to tell.

3.  Truly feel every emotion you might encounter.  No matter how bad it may hurt.

4.  Be in love with your life.  Every detail of it.

5.  Amazing things come from the things you are most afraid of.

6.  Take more risks than safe bets.

7.  Surround yourself with good and only good.

The large crack that is in my heart from my dad passing away is something I love and cherish because these things have grown out of it.  Seven years later I can celebrate his life, not mourn over his death.  I can laugh at the memories and smile at the future.  Death is sad, but life is amazing.  Too amazing to waste on insignificant things, to live without love and not enjoy every second of everyday.   He was amazing and I was lucky to have him for those 15 years.

     

I love you Dad and I miss you more than ever before.  Thank you for the strength, love and passion you have given to me.  I hope I am making you proud from all the way down here.  <3

NYC: Best of Instagram

1. I'm coming for you New York!

2. That cookie happened one night.

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1.  Perfect start to the night.  Perfect Pear.

2.  Beautiful day for brunch!

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1.  Sunday Funday

2.  Ridiculous New York tourist.  Party of one.

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1.  Life does not suck.

2.  New York Yankees.

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1.  Look what came in the mail!

2.  Yankee Stadium.

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1.  On Broadway.

2.  There is no problem in this world that a cheeseburger can't fix.

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1.  Headed to JFK.  Sad to be leaving.

2.  It was epic I tell you.  Definitely left a part of me behind.  I <3 NYC.  Thanks for one hell of a weekend Casey!

NYC: Part 6

NYC: Part 5 Sunday Funday Edition

NYC: Part 4